Not sure about blogger

I am not sure I like this blog site...sure it is linked to GMAIL but what is the use in that really? I can have ads on my blog but they are terrible...I thought I would be able to choose the type of ads shown. This is not the case...boo.
In other news...I am really trying to get Beatrice on a normal napping schedule. This requires quite a bit of diligence and planning. Like, just now I really wanted to go to the grocery store but that would mess up her nap schedule...they say that well rested babies sleep better at night so I am working on it. I also am trying to get her to stay down for a whole hour at a time. AH! This is so hard! She cries a lot...she doesn't like sleeping but when she wakes up she is in such a better mood! She has been sleeping pretty well through the night these days though...which is a plus! 6:45-7pm to 5:00am is a success to me! Then I feed her and we lay in bed until 6:30-7am. What a treat!
It is a beautiful day out today!
I have started to watch my husbands cousin two days a week which is interesting. I thought I would handle it with great ease but I will be honest it is hard to have energy for children who are not your own...I don't think I was built for it. I really believed that education at least for smaller children would really suit me but I am not sure that is the case. Perhaps it is because I am also caring for my child while working with her but I don't feel as patient as I thought I would. Don't get me wrong Cayce (the four year old) is sweet with my little one and she doesn't mis-behave by any means. It is just getting used to another routine I guess!
I miss being in a choir...I am not very gutsy when it comes to solo performing but I love to perform in a good choir...it just moves you. Take this performance for instance. i thank You God for most this amazing day by Eric Witicre and lyrics by e.e. cummings. It moved me just to hear it...but I have sung that song and the music vibrates in your body as you sing with other musicians and it is a feeling I can't even describe...like a big hug where your heart wants to leap out of your chest!
Here are the lyrics
i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky; and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday; this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings: and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any--lifted from the no
of all nothing--human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
e.e. cummings